I have been feeling a little "pity-party-ish" lately. It seems as though every time I turn around, someone else is pregnant. I have always handled this fairly well in the past...maybe I'm hormonal right now. Actually, I seem to use this excuse a lot lately! haha! It is just so frustrating...I almost hate to answer my phone sometimes because I feel like it is news that someone else is pregnant. Some people I know as acquaintances, some people a little more, and some people are very close to me. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for them. I would never ever wish infertility on anyone...well, maybe Britney Spears, but not even her, really! Another thing, I suppose I am glad people don't try to "protect" me and keep thier pregnancies (or those of others) from me. I am a strong woman...it may sting a bit sometimes, but I'd rather people are upfront with me than to find out down the road from someone else.
I had a doctor's appointment today. Just a yearly exam. The nurse who was checking me in and getting all my information was ticking me off!! Something came up about IVF and she asked if I have any children now. I said no and she just gave that smile...those of you who have ever dealt with infertility know the smile I speak of. Then there were two other times she brought it up when she was doing something on the computer and would say, "oh, no children" but didn't say anything else when filling in other information. I wanted to kick her in the head...
Which reminds me...I kind of miss Ally McBeal. Did anyone else watch this show?! Often I wish I had "Ally moments". You know when someone says or does something and you picture yourself ripping off thier heads and rolling them down a hallway or something as equally unbelievable...then you snap yourself back into the here and now. I find it very cathartic sometimes!
Anyway, enough of my babbling for today. I just wish that I could scream out sometimes when I hear news of someone else's impending bundles of joy, "WHEN IS IT MY TURN?!?!" Maybe I should just start going around to thier houses and drinking thier water!