Well, I guess when it rains, it pours! I haven't posted much lately and now here I am...2 in one day!
I've been feeling kind of lonely lately. I feel that I am in this alone for this cycle. Of course, my husband has been absolutely wonderful, but he's a guy, ya know!? Over the last 2 years I have become very close with a group of women I met on babycenter. They have been a great source of support. I am now the last one of the group that has not gotten pg. This is a lonely place to be! Many of them are celebrating their babies 1st birthdays, some are planning this milestone and some have very new babies at home. I feel like I don't want to "rain on their parades" with my upcoming cycle. There are some "newbies" on the board too that are currently pg. While I am so happy for them, I don't have that same closeness that I have with our original group. It makes it hard to visit that board, so I seldom do. I am officially the LAST ONE and it kind of sucks!
I know that these women that I speak of would hate to know that I feel this way and I know they are always there to support me. I know they pray for my miracle to happen. I just feel like such a downer and they have all this wonderful stuff happening right now. It is hard to write this with out getting teary. I have heard of "pregnancy guilt" (when one of us gets pg while another hasn't yet) but is there such a thing as "not-yet-pregnant guilt"?! I feel guilty talking about my sob story and poor me moods while they are experiencing such joy.
Well, my aforementioned dear husband is waiting for me in the other room to have some QT with me...I guess I will conclude this particular pity party and go join him.